“She looked at me!”

“No way! Not you!”

“No really! I swear I saw her looking at me when I walked by her today. And that smile…”

“You got one of her smiles?”

“Yeah. But I have no chance. You know she’s with that mysterious guy that no one knows about.”

“I bet you she’s just making that guy up! I mean no one has seen him.”

“I know but hey, man, you never know. I mean she’s pretty mysterious herself.”

“True”

Their voices, brash and young, drifted off to a murmur and the man looked up, distracted by his thoughts, thoughts put into his mind by the two young men striding across the courtyard.

He was curious.

That, in and of itself, was not unique. He was a curious man and he did not shy away from this quality of himself. What was different this time was that he was curious about a woman.

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Dear God

Let me

persevere even when it seems I can not go on anymore
but have the wisdom to know when some things are not worth my energy.

make the right decisions
stick to the right choices

be appreciative of the good and thankful for the bad
be happy in every aspect of my life
be humble and to trust in You
be the best that I am able to be

have confidence as I go out in the world
have courage to stay on the path you have put out before me
have peace from within

love You
love myself
love every person whose life touches mine
whether they mean me well or mean me trouble

say the right word and do the right things to bless and comfort the people around me

learn from the experiences of others as well as the mistakes that I have made

know that You are near me with every step I take and every breath I breathe

Let me not be
regretful of the past
unheeding of the present
worried for the future

Let my
knowledge accumulate
wisdom strengthen
spirit grow
beauty shine from my heart

In order to become the person that I was meant to be

Protect and bless me, my family, and all those I love

Amen

Hate. Hate was running through her veins. Well, the girl reflected, maybe it wasn’t hate but it was certainly extreme dislike. Loathing perhaps? Definitely dislike. And right now, all of this dislike was directed at one person.

Her aunt. That bitch.

This dislike was a very uncomfortable feeling. The girl wasn’t used to disliking anyone. In fact, she couldn’t remember the last time she had disliked someone else this intensely. She was usually easy-going. A pushover maybe. She thought about that word a bit in her mind. No. Probably not a pushover. Definitely not used to hating anyone though. The feeling sat in her stomach, burning, simmering, a strange sort of heat. It was strangely satisfying. Perhaps she was a masochist.

The girl shivered a little. The room was cool, icy even. That was to be expected in a morgue of course. It was a small room, and she was facing the silver doors that held the bodies. That held a certain body. She shivered a little again, this time not with the cold. The security guard tried to joke with her but her solemn face staring back at him dimmed his cheer so he busied himself with whatever he was doing. As the body slid out, almost soundlessly, she caught her breath. She didn’t know what she was expecting but she certainly wasn’t expecting herself to be standing here, watching her grandfather rolling out on soundless wheels with an icy blast of air seemingly propelling him towards her.

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When I see you, all I see is the darkness
Ripped apart, sent to hell, you sacrificed yourself for a world that never knew
You never thought you’d come home, but here you are on my doorstep
Staring at me, and I’m looking back at you

So give me that chance to rediscover the person you are now
I’m strong enough to be the strength to lift you from a fall
Open your heart to let me back inside
Let me show you that I’ve never stopped loving you

You jerk awake, screaming out into the night.
The nightmares swirl with what was, what is, what could so easily have come true You never thought you’d escape but you’re safely in our bed
Holding on to me, and I’m clutching on to you

So give me that chance to rediscover the person you are now
I’m strong enough to be the strength to lift you from a fall
Open your heart to let me back inside
Let me show you that I’ve never stopped loving you

Sometimes you stop, and stare out in the distance.
You’re far away, some place I cannot follow, or see your point of view
I’ll never understand those memories but I’m by your side
With my hands outstretched towards you, asking you to…

Give me that chance to rediscover the person you are now.
Let me be your strength, let me be your peace, your friend, your all
Open your heart; I’ll keep it safe for you
Let me show you that I’ll never stop loving you.